When I became a Christian I discovered couldn’t sin and enjoy. That hasn’t changed. Sin feels worse and worse all the time. Guilt and shame seem stronger. Like the warning light on the dashboard, or pain in your body. It tells us we need to repent (change of direction) and confess our sin. I hate feeling disconnected from God, empty, no peace or joy. It really makes me feel disappointed in myself when I fail. I expect more of myself at this point in my Christian life!
Recently I realized something. It was God reassuring me. I feel miserable because God’s Spirit inside me convicts me. I wouldn’t respond that way if it weren’t for God Himself showing His displeasure at my sin. Without His Spirit I’d keep on sinning. There is nothing in me that desires righteousness apart from His Spirit in me. So what’s so good about feeling miserable about sin? It means God hasn’t left me or turned His back on me. He hasn’t given up on me or removed His presence from me. I hurt Him, but He still loves me and wants me back. Can you imagine that?
If I weren’t a child of His I’d be hard and insensitive to sin. I’m so glad I’m not! I’m so glad the Holy Spirit is still clearly working in me. I’m so glad God doesn’t give up even if I give up on myself.
So my message to you, since you probably experience the same thing, is to confess and return to God ASAP. Don’t beat yourself up after you are cleansed and restored. Don’t think God is disgusted with you and doesn’t want anything to do with you anymore. Clearly He does. The conviction of sin proves it. Don’t give up on yourself – He doesn’t give up on you. Ever!
Romans 11:2 God did not reject his people, whom he foreknew.
2 Corinthians 7:9-10 9 yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us. 10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.
Is there any sin in your life right now that you should confess?
Are you willing to accept God’s forgiveness when you confess instead of continuing to beat yourself up?
Thank God for convicting you of sin because it means He loves you and wants what is best for you.
cto Rev. Dr. JERRY SCHMOYER
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